Q&A: Who Do You Miss?

“Who is the person you miss most right now?”

Yay, I get to out myself as an awful human being!  Whoo!

Excited Gir

So, yeah, the answer to that question?  No one.  There is not a single person that I genuinely miss right at the moment.

I don’t really miss people.  I mean, I have missed people.  Not since the last time I had a crush, but, I have missed people.  What you have to understand though is that I’ve moved a lot in my life.  For most of my life I haven’t lived in the same place as my friends.  When I was young that sucked because the internet wasn’t a thing and long distance was too expensive, so I would miss them and then after a while, I would, well, stop missing them… But now I have the internet.  So the friends I made in high school are just a Skype message away!

I guess I miss the abstract concept of people.  I miss having someone to go do things with.  But even that, I went to a movie by myself for the first time to see Thor 2 (fun movie if you haven’t seen it yet.  If you’re a comic book fan or just enjoyed the Marvel movies so far, you’ll probably enjoy it) and while I did wish I had a friend there, it wasn’t as weird as I expected it to be.  The usher showing me which theatre I was supposed to go to put his hand on my back and that was really awkward and uncomfortable, but other than that…

You don't know me

That got weird in a hurry…  What was I talking about?  Oh right, I’m a terrible person.  I live alone, when I live in camp for work, I don’t eat with the other people, I kind of hate my coworker, my boss doesn’t talk much, and the people that work in the neighboring offices are mostly guys in their 60’s or early 20’s that I have nothing in common with so I don’t miss anyone from work ever either.

I don’t miss family, I don’t have friends I don’t talk to often enough for that to become a thing, I don’t have a long distance love, or a short distance one for that matter.  I don’t like humanity in general (no offense.  I’m sure all of my readers are awesome), so I definitely don’t miss just being around people.  I get lonely, sure, but I tend to like being alone.  I would just prefer if sometimes someone else was in the physical vicinity to go and do things with.  I’ve been like that my whole life.  My mom used to say when I was only 2 or 3 that I never wanted people to be talking to me or playing with me, I just always wanted them close enough that if I decided I wanted to talk to them I could.  So what’s there to miss if I always kept everyone at arms length to begin with?

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